Monday, May 10, 2010

Something's brewing...

OK, so I admit it. I wish I hadn't promised to write down what has been going on at our house. As you can see, I put it off as long as I could. Here's the deal...

Friday afternoon I got a call about showing our house at 8:30... A.M... Saturday morning. Seriously? Yep, they even got here 5 minutes early. I had to tell the realtor to go to the front door so we would sneak out through the garage. They were inside for 25 minutes. Now, from our experience, that is pretty good.

We secretly watched from down the street as they drove off and thought that we would now be able to relax and enjoy our day. Phone rings around 12:30p.m. They want to come back at 2:00 and bring the mother or grandmother... whichever. And so we watched and waited again. 45 minutes this time. That's a long time people. Something's up.

I didn't care at this point, I just wanted a nap. The next call came at 4:20p.m. and it was our realtor... with an offer. For real. Back and forth a couple of times... By 8:00p.m. we were signing a contract. Seriously. Less than 12 hours from beginning to end. Ugh.

You wonder why my emotions are all jumbled up? You want to know why I wasn't swinging from the chandelier dining room fixture? Because it all happened so fast. AND, this is the big one... Hubby's job is ending on the same date we are scheduled to close on our home. There is nothing else planned beyond that date. Zilch. Nada.

So, I let sin creep in. The fear... the anxiety... the worry. Yes, I know that God will take care of us. He always has. Yes, I know that God has plans to prosper us and give us hope and a future. Of course I do. But will everything come together when we think we need it to? Will we have a job before this one ends? Will there be suffering?

This, my friends, is where I let Satan stick his big fat ugly foot in the door. I can see God at work. I realize what a miracle Saturday was for our family. We are blessed. But I'm still struggling. It makes me feel weak...

5 comments:

Cranberry Morning said...

That would make me feel weak too, and tired. Having an unsettled situation saps my energy. Thank God that His strength is made perfect in [our] weakness. Thank God that other believers can uphold us in prayer when we are struggling and feeling weak.

Sarah Ann said...

That is a lot in one day. But God takes care of us in every situation, and it's so nice to know that we can rest in that.
Your blog is so sweet. I'm definitely following!

partialemptynester said...

Well, sweet friend, that's where we come in! Your bloggybuddies will be praying! Uncertainty isn't easy for anyone, but after all is said and done, you know you'll see God all over this and that's when the blogging will become fun again!

carissa @ lowercase letters said...

i don't blame you. i'd cetainly feel the exact same way! wow, that is indeed a miracle that your house sold! so many changes, so many unknowns, and yet, the God of this universe who has every single hair on your head numbered, has every single detail plotted out for you! what an amazing thought... one that you can rejoice in, even in the midst of fear! praying for you sweet gal. i can't wait to see where the Lord leads your beautiful family.

Deborah said...

You write beautifully and I can relate to worry and anxiety but I have found that God always keeps His promises to us and he is never early or late in bringing us the answers we need. I pray He blesses you and your family in a big way. :) I will be visiting again and reading your other posts. Nice blog.